Yoga. The Yoke. A wooden tool that your carry on your shoulders, with two buckets full of "stuff" in it. Whatever is in those buckets, you gotta carry it. To carry the contents of those buckets, you gotta let go of judging what you are carrying. It is weight. It is heavy. It will never ever go away.

Yoga is a set of methods that will help you to "bear your suffering" as graceful as possible. Yoga does not create snifflers, nor does it encourage hypes. Yoga is "that's the way it is (for me)" and "you gotta make sure you carry those buckets".

In Yoga there are no classes you pay for, but there is life. Paying for a "Yoga-Class" in some kind of studio will only make you dirtier and more dependant on having to work for money. Yoga is not a thing you can buy, but a way back to simplicity. You can say now that "paying for classes is simple enough". True. Your teacher paid for the certificate and now you pay for classes. You think this is Yoga, while in truth YOU ARE STUCK.

How does suffering happen and how can one be active about it?

Hi, my name is Christopher and I started hiking barefoot in the year 2012. I wanted to know how far I can push this and I got quite far. The reason you heard of me, or came across me, is because I pushed my limits. I also made sure that my feet were getting tough. I suffered, willingly, and that a lot. I did things I said I would never do them again, ever and then I started to work towards doing them again, despite what I had said. I realised that I wanted to learn from nature and spend as much time i nature as I can. To achieve this I had to stop being whiny and I had to start taking cold showers, hold my planks and do whatever it takes. I also had to stop watching movies and I had to start figuring out how it could work FOR ME, as a very specific individual.

So "NO!", I do not see Yoga-Classes as beneficial to anyone, because they reduce the suffering you could be doing to grow as an individual. 5-20/100 people in a studio is just escaping being alone. I grew, because I stopped running after people and started charging ahead. I met people that wanted to cling and I put my phone on flight-mode and worked hard. I have met people that I truly liked, but I have no idea whether I will ever meet them again. My life needed to prosper and so I figured out what I want. I saw my self from the perspective of an outsider and I started to work on my self as an insider. I am the only one who will ever truly know why I am doing all of this. I can tell you, but that is not the feeling. You can see what I have done, is because I sacrificed a lot of things along the way.

How about NOT doing what you really think you like every day? How about not reading books for a year, so you can start to write? How about NOT turning on your radiator in winter and figuring out how to stay warm? How about letting other people come to you (if they want), even if you feel lonely? How about hiking barefoot, just to know that you have done it? How about sacrificing watching movies, so that you can sit quietly and do crochet? How about being active? No chocolate? No handshakes? No hugs? No flattery? No small talk? No masturbation? No porn? No talking for a weekend? Not listening to music, but making it? Not looking up stuff on the internet, but searching for solutions in your mind?

You think this is child's play and cannot see how this could have to do anything with active suffering? Then do it and see. Witness how turning your phone off for an entire week can show you sides of your self you never knew exist. Seems to easy? Then pick something else. Some people don't really care for phones, while others never go anywhere without. You gotta be honest with your self, or this will never work for you. - That's All.

Movement is important. Move. A lot. Walk on all fours to the kitchen, when you have to go there. Do squats. Hike. Walk, instead of driving, even if it takes 2-3 hours. Take your time. Look at how people move, but mostly move your self. Energy needs to flow. You gotta stop sitting on chairs and sofas, but have to toughen up. Why are you reading this again? You wanted change? Maybe you were just curious. Who cares? You are here, because you felt the need to change and so I tell you to change step by step. Walking on all fours is your gateway to holding asanas. The Peacock is a form of stability and strength. All Asanas are about balance. You never liked studios and you wanna figure your self out? Then walk on all fours at home, hold planks with straight arms and study movement. Watch Ido Portal, or me, or animals. Understand movement and then move. Imitate fire, or water, or earth. Watch "The Last Airbender" and learn from how they move. Watch Andy Serkis as Gollum and then do that. Use what you can to motivate your self to move more and to be active.

No why did we stop to move? Society wants to keep us in check. A child cannot be conditioned, or indoctrinated, if they are happy and alive. Children need to be pinned down to serve consumerism, so that a few people can be super rich. If you would be active and liked movement, then you would not need a car, or movies, or chainsaw, or petrol. Movement is life and when I ask you "Have you ever watched a bird?", you would go and study them to understand what birds are about. Only instead of watching movies about birds, you would look at the birds you see where you are and not look for them in screens. We were nomads and now we cling. 10 kilometres in bare feet used to be nothing to us. Being creative was normal.

Walk like a crocodile. Walk like a panther. Walk like a chimpanzee, but remember that you are a human. Amongst humans, in this society, you gotta walk on two feet. Stigmatisation is a really heavy thing and you do not want to make it too easy for society to judge you. Have grace, but remember your humanity. Animal Movement is not your way back, but your way forward. It is the best way to train your shoulders and your core, without having to do specific exercises. I get up during the night and crawl like Gollum to get a glass of filtered tap water.

I can safely say, that I ran out of time and energy for dancing. I had no more time to do movement-sessions, because I had a lot of other things to do. I had to worry about book-projects and creating more content. I had to worry about making food and being on schedule. So I started to move on all fours in a safe environment, which is my own apartment. This will form your foundation onto which you can build. Planks with straight arms. Asanas. Vrishchikasana. Mayurasana. Kakasana. Squats are for mobility. Eat your meals in a squat. I seldom sit with crossed legs anymore, as that weakens your ankles. I want to lead an active life, for my self and for future generations.

Okay: Yoga. Consciousness? Bhagavad Gita? India. Is that my source of information? Not really. The Bhagavad Gita is a romantic love-poem, where people have the time to stand around and chat with each other and my life is a hack-job*. I was born into a society in which polarisation, stigmatisation and ignorance are trained and even wanted. I had to learn being calm and conscious from scratch. Give me sugar and I'll run around in some fantasy dream-world, but I'll never be able to focus on what is going on beneath the surface. Sugar will keep me in some roller-coaster of nonesense and all I know is that I cannot say what is going on.

*For anyone interested, I uploaded a recording of a commented reading of the Bhagavad Gita to my Odysee-Channel. 
This is the link to the Playlist Oh "Song Celestial"

Being conscious takes some time. To me "being conscious" means "being aware"....only of what? It means: The ability to pay attention to a lot of things at the same time and then choose accordingly. If you cannot focus, then you cannot choose consciously. Focus is hard work, at first, but gets easier with time. Focus is best trained by working with your hands, without music or technological distractions. I am focussing right now. I focus when I make art and I focus when I read. If you cannot focus on what you are reading, then something ought to be changed. Social media is really fast-paced and is simply a tool to distract your self. While scanning through some app, you could be doing lots of things. You could learn to solve the Rubik's Cube. You could crochet a hat. You could focus on your current situation and then find solutions. How could you ever transcend your self, if you cannot let go? Sometimes we must focus on the past and then realise whether we progressed, or whether we are stuck.

A conscious movement would probably rather take itself out of society, than go and demonstrate under society's weird and often twisted unspoken rules. It says you've got freedom of speech, but can you stand on the streets and speak your truth, without anyone attacking you for it? No. If you were to stand in the open as a powerful and singular conscious being, then you would attract attention and (conscious or not) the "controller" would pretty soon show its face to put you into place. People ARE afraid, instead of being conscious of their fear. You get what I'm saying? Me becoming conscious/aware of energy-flow, revealed to me how energy is flowing also in a society, or in a family. I could see how some beings got more juice than others, for whatever reason. I became aware how powerplay works and started seeing how energy flows under the surface of things. Consciousness usually means "all that you're conscious of", while you cannot be conscious about everything. This is why "a conscious movement" needs lots of individuals, so that the movement is "consciousness on a larger scale". So maybe "consciousness" is really lots of conscious beings connected through mind. 'Mind over matter', indeed!

"Being Conscious" is therefore something that you are. It is something you gotta want to be, or else it would be swallowed again. Being conscious also stands in connection with "having energy". I started to become more aware/conscious after I had started hiking barefoot in nature, but the fact that I did start going barefoot into nature already shows that there are indeed significant differences between what we call "humans". None of my 'friends' from school did anything remotely like I did. I became conscious of certain circumstances only after had "shone my light on them" for numerous hours/instances/moments. Words are a totally inadequate tool to communicate what you are conscious of, because words are snippets of energy that can be interpreted according to whatever the reader is conscious of. If you are only trying to have fun, then my creations would seriously distract you from it, because they are the work of someone who has suffered a lot and that consciously. I have chosen to hike barefoot, while I needed to continue to hike barefoot to see the change I would go through. Now I am much more conscious of my surroundings, because my roots stretch farther into the ether, meaning that I can feel out the future. I am conscious of things that are lurking on the periphery of the moment, but I cannot yet see them as manifest things. They are omens, meaning they twist and shape themselves according to how I choose. This is why "being conscious" is something that needs constant feeding and reminding. It means that you started taking responsibility for Your Self and everything that stands in relation with it. This also means that you gotta take your time to understand this. Meaning? Meaning that you can awaken occasionally, but to be awake all the time would take a lot of reminding, adjusting and working with the tide. Energy is swelling and shrinking. Consciousness is also like a river, or the ocean. It is subject to change. Things are different during a full moon and during a new moon, but how long will it take until you pick up on these things? Well, I got an app on my phone that tells me the lunar cycle. When I feel down, or heavy, then I look for clues what is causing this heaviness. It keeps me busy and helps me to stay inquisitive and to gather information about my self and about what impacts my behaviour. If I am conscious about the effect that the moon has on how I feel, then I can choose consciously how to react to it. I know now that it gets a little more dark during the new moon and a little more light during the full. To stay in the middle and balanced, I must make certain choices that need to be a result of my own experiences. I may read about what to it, but will this food also satisfy me?

Introduce bitter into your diet and reduce the sweet. Cut out yeast, as yeast is a fungus that feeds on your energy, meaning that you cannot be fully conscious about your environment, when you are actively feeding a parasite in your self. Get used to "the cold", by going swimming in natural lakes throughout the year, but be careful with this one....it takes time to adjust to. Cold-Therapy/Treatment caused me severe pain and anxiety in the beginning, which is why I had to slowly build this up. I am no Wim Hof, which is why it is hard for me to understand how he just got there. While he may have trouble to keep up with my barefoot hiking. So choose something you can only do in nature and test how far you can go with it. This is how you become more conscious. Being grounded. Barefoot. Cold. Weather. Focus. Survival. True encounters. Nature's got a 'One Size fits all'-Package. Get it? We are all living in Nature. Now it is time to learn what she's got to teach us. She? Sure, why not. Could be a "He" you know, or just both at the same time!!!

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As this part of the website is dealing more heavily with the term "Yoga", I also feel inclined to say something about India, to which many look as the sacred land, where vegetarianism thrives and where the Bhagavad Gita arose from. Sure. There may have been times, but these times were over a long time ago. India has smartphones and pornography. India has overpopulation and clearly a problem with dirt. Who can tell today what "sacred" is supposed to mean, if we all feel okay to use the internet in one way or another, while also knowing what serious effects this usage has on our environment and the connections we have with our ancestors/ family and true heart-connections (if there are any at all). So if there is you, then there's also gotta be me. If we have a relationship in whatever way, then I must be seen as much as you. I as a child must learn to see my parents and my parents must learn to see me. Not for what they hold on to, but for what they perceive when they let go. Meaning?

"You and your meaning".......I get it, you wish to know, but who are you asking for answers? 
Sure not me? How could I give you your answers, if I have no idea who you are and what happened in your life. Most people that will spend time with my work, probably just want the goodies without working for it. I never give you anything, unless you add your bit to it. That is balance. I have realised what value I have for a society and for the future of our nature, but you may not see that. You just see "I want to know what he knows and I want him to tell me!!!". What a selfish little brat you are. So you think I am withholding information? You student, I teacher? Okay, listen: You will never get to the treasures (Easter-Eggs) in my works, without working hard to get them. You have to see what I actually did from the perspective of an interested and curious mind. If you want to truly learn from me, then you gotta start by saying "Hey, I'd like to understand what this guy is trying to communicate!"

Trying? I ain't trying, I am communicating it. I was creative and I am creative while I am writing this. I did all of this, while the majority of people was sitting around "being amazed". I never gave way to amazement, but kept a critical eye on every situation and that's why I never came to any real harm. Balance. Be in awe, but also remember that life may try to kill you, just to see if you are any good at survival. If your life ends in a wheelchair, then you just weren't as good as you think you were. Why am I saying this? You should have seen it coming. Your actions create ripples into the future, meaning that you can project each of your choices into the unknown and extrapolate what you know about life, until you come to the conclusion that certain choices will eventually lead to disaster.

So while you are still wondering when I am going to say something about 'Balance' and 'how to strive for it', I am asking my self whether you have been paying any attention? The heading of this paragraph is already the message!!! The rest is for those who didn't get that.

A lot of people believe that "Yoga" is some form of stretching, while I can only remind you that most people think it a good idea to vote for sick and disgusting people. I mean: The president wears a wig and endeavours to portray himself as "truthful". Did you get that? A wig is an alteration. It is a distraction from the way things are and people still thought he was the solution to their problems. The solution to your problems is not stretching, but stability. When a tree would be 100% flexible, then what would the tree do in a storm? A tree is a bit like slim-fit underwear. 95% cotton and 5% elastane. You need to be hard as rock, but still flexible enough to survive. Once you feel you cannot continue with your life without eating meat, or some kind of animal protein, then you'd better be flexible about your ideas about diet. My body is an animal and so I must treat my self as such in certain facets of my life. I need movement and I need hardship. What is life in the forest for a roe deer? Is it hardship, or just life? Escaping hardship will make you weak. So shower cold and stop whining. Cancel your "Yoga-Class" and start going for barefoot walks. Throw out you super-elevated bed, including its thick mattress and sleep on your carpet, or buy your self a Kapok-Mattress of about 5cm height. Stop eating sugar and stop being so wiggly about life. You gotta really work hard to understand what I'm talking about, because I am really far away.

So to me stretching is sitting in a squat. Stretching happens by increasing the range of your movements. So "No", I rarely stretch. I imagined my self leading an active lifestyle and realised that stretching is not necessary if you crawl on all fours through your apartment until the rest of your days. Why ought I to be able to place my feet on my head? Would a scorpion sting himself? No. Most people that start with doing Asanas either stop, or overdo them. Your lower back needs strength, not overarching. So stay away from people who advertise Yoga as "having no form". You wanna listen to people who are grounded and that go barefoot into nature! That's all...

So you wanna know more about my mindset? Maybe "MANtality of a Warrior" is a book that can help you with this: tredition.com

You need to cleanse. Simple? Elemental sulphur works to clean out your colon from parasites like fungi (yeast colonisation is a real problem). In addition I can say that a MOSTLY Ketogenic Diet works wonders on your mind and well-being. You got to take fungal overgrowth serious. Seriously. This is not a joke. Clean out your diet. Never again eat yeast. Drink no beer and eat no foods that contain yeast. Trust me on that one. Yeast grows through you and it changes you into something you are not. You will eat lots of sugar and have no idea why. Yeast feasts on sugar. Yeast likes a sour milieu, while you should be balanced between alkaline and sour. Sugar becomes acid in your self. Coffee is acid. So reduce. Learn about which foods create an acidic environment and which an alkaline one and then pay attention. Does your urine burn a little? Reduce your intake of foods that get metabolised into acid. I never eat lots of meat, but once every two weeks maybe. It depends on my need for high protein food. Cleansing is therefore not something you do occasionally, but something you need to keep doing. I drink teas to help me flush out and transform toxic emotions. I cleanse emotionally by doing art, but I feel often tired and almost dead after such a process. Hiking in bare feet is kind of nice, but it is also a beating that I need to test my strength.

So what are you here for, but to FIGURE IT OUT? I figured out that I need a balanced diet, which means that occasionally I'll make my self sweet bread with dates and bananas. I also get bored easily with everything and so I need to introduce change. Sometimes I eat lots of soups and when I get bored of that I start to fry stuff. I have fermented my own vegetables already once and I continue to grow by making experiences. Cleansing? I did a lot of cleanses. Now my major cleanse is hiking barefoot to the nearest natural lake to swim in it. You gotta push through, no matter what. So when my life gets devoid of anything, then I take some pork out of the freezer and make my self a Schnitzel. That's what I did yesterday. I am an emotional being! So what? I ain't got no religion. I follow nature and if I were to live in the forest, then I would hunt. My next project is collecting snails and cooking them, just to see. At the ocean they eat mussels, but what are those in the forest? Exactly....snails.

So yeah...cleansing. I cleanse my self of my desire to vanish from this existence and I do something that helps me to stay in the light. The Schnitzel was awesome by the way. I flatted the meat with a stone, then dipped it into chickpea flour, then egg-white and then oats. I fried it in oil until it was crispy. I used the yolk of the egg to make my self some awesome homemade mayonnaise. Take a yolk, add a bit of vinegar, then take a whisk and mix in the oil bit by bit. You let the oil flow from the container in a fine stream and keep on whisking away. Then add some 5 cloves of garlic that you crushed in a mortar with a pestle together with cumin seeds and whole coriander. Add some Chili powder and a bit of salt. That's your sauce. I also had some fries on the side. Cut potatoes with the skin in whatever shape you like, add some oil and then bake em crispy at about 180°C. Takes about 4o minutes perhaps. AWESOME. Got me motivated to finish with this part of the website. MMmmMMMMh, what a cleanse I've been doing. All my "I hate life and I ẃanna stop living" was transformed by working hard and allowing my self something I had seen my self eating already since my last hike. Now I finally did it. I had the courage to let go of any ideas of being "spiritual" and just ate what I felt would help me to push through and get shit done!!!

BAM!!!!! 
Bye bye Stigmatisation!!!

Sugar is basically cocaine, or heroin. I have never lowered my self to take either of these things, but I have eaten lots of sugar in my lifetime. I was unstable, to say the least. Now I am feeling much better, but if life gets too heavy, then I often crave for something that helps to me get through a task such as this: "Create a section called 'My Yoga' on your website and do it quick!!!"

What used to be pancakes with just sugar and butter on top, now turned to gluten-free pan-bread with butter. I also ate lots of honey, which I let go of. I take the occasional dates, like I said, but it shouldn't be habitual. There's sugar in peanuts, you know. There is also clear evidence that sugar makes you forget and we're all about remembering, correct? We need to remember what they threatened to do to us, or else they will do so again. My content is full of reminders about the true goals of the "health-industry", which is making money. So run not to your doctors, but learn to trust your self. If your doctor had faith, then he would not work for the state. He would have started going into nature and would have tried reaching out to people that actually want to listen and change. We cannot be docile pets anymore and some of never were. I bid my time, until I had three degrees, lots of insane experiences and a lot of cheek in my 'personal bag'.

BUT!!!...I ate sugar, until my teeth started to severely deteriorate. Then only did I begin to seriously change. Also: Doing an elemental sulphur cleanse is not a simple things and while doing this, it is best to not eat sugar in its crystalline form at all. I have done my cleansing, just so you know, only I chose to do this. I voluntarily did a cleanse, but I still had to let go. Sugar was all I know. To change that is hard. I had to learn cooking and eating and food from scratch. Bitter was introduced to me in the form of radicchio, but I detested the taste. Then came Ayahuasca and that showed me how bitter bitter can be and how clean you can feel after ingesting bitter in large quantities. I also realised that there is no need to keep running for Ayahuasca if dandelion roots have bitter. There are lots of bitter-tea mixtures that you can also mix into your doughs. I have bitter in my food. I even put bitter gourd into soups. I add Swertia powder to tea, or soak a teaspoon in 200ml of water over night and drink it the next morning before a hike. This is how I cleansed. I pushed through, but I let go of crystals. I also reduced salt to mostly never. I ferment food and the water contains salt. It works, you just gotta work hard and always remember what your goals in life are. Staying conscious is hard work in this world and that makes it a nice challenge for anyone with a bit of fire that hasn't yet been totally quenched.

So breathe into your stomach, but also make sure you get the right kind of food into your system. Give your self time to change. I work with transitions. Sometimes I fell back, but I got annoyed of having to start from scratch again. You really gotta figure Your Self OUT!

Like I said, I eat meat occasionally. I buy it in a store I like and then I get 2-3kg, cut them into parts and freeze them for later. I can only say it helps, but I also do not just sit around and "make happy". Please remember that we cannot safely say how people in India truly lived, or lived. There are as many different kinds of Yogi as there are leaves on a tree. I can eat chicken and beef and pork. The meat today surely has no real power, but it helps me to get by. If you feel terrible about meat production, then try being vegan, or vegetarian. I already did that, but I got to the point, where I could not continue with this. I felt sick and weak and I needed strength. So I said "Hey, if I want to live, then I gotta be smart about this. I gotta take society as it is and use what I can to teach people to do their own thing and learn how to trust themselves, instead of paying for trust, which never works anyway!!!"

OFF COURSE!!!!! Yeah, I lost track a little. This also isn't really me, but just a character that may catch you where you are and cheer you up a little to start figuring your self out. Get it? I already was almost dead a couple of times, but every time I picked my self up and fought the good fight. I fight for nature and the people I treasure and nature is all about survival. I see my tribe clearly in front of my eyes and for that I gotta work hard. If meat helps me to get through the weak, then I will eat meat. I cannot allow my self to be weak. So tell me when you have done your first 40 kilometres on a dry fast and then shake your head if you like. Your thoughts and your words mean NOTHING at all in nature. Truth knows only one thing and that is deeds. If I see you, then I know what you live like.

So be aware what people would like you to be and then be what you are. You are a being of nature. A being of nature MUST fight to survive. Why? Well, spirit is something that can die in a man or a woman. Look at these people in this 'society'. Look at how weak they are. Even the people that eat lots of tuna and go to the gym five times a week are weak. They would never get through a 40km hike without a protein-shake. They would worry about loosing their precious muscles, while my life is all about being strenuous. I'm a tough little bugger that you will never see coming. That is truth. Truth comes in the form of a tick and people these days shit their pants. It comes in the form of a wasp at your precious BBQ and you freak out about it. So it isn't the meat, it is the mentality I have adopted. I fight. I survive. I struggle and then I relax a little. I get shit done and you shit your pants,....perhaps. A little much? I gotta work hard or else I will never move on.

So to me meat is just something that we can eat. It fills me up. it got protein and juice and fat and I like it, occasionally. I was raised eating meat and then I tried being a vegetarian and even a vegan for some years, until I felt to weak to do what want and so I changed my self again. Now I can do lots of things. I can make a vegan mayonnaise, as well as a vegetarian one. I can eat vegetarian today and vegan tomorrow and then next week I eat a giant stake, or a Schnitzel. You know what I want now? I want to truly live. I want to swim in a lake in winter, without fear of freezing to death. I want to see what life really has in store. I want to take in the stuff that makes me stronger and get rid of the material junk nobody needs. I chucked out tobacco and cannabis and I found my own way of doing things. I got to stay true to MY Self. That is the freedom you need. If you feel no need whatsoever to eat meat, then don't bother to please me, or anyone. Do what you feel is the right kind of way to live for the rest of your life.

So is meat necessary? I say "It is available in large quantities and it fills up my stomach!"

Sure. Vegan. Why do so many vegans look really pale and worn out? Maybe vegan is more for hot climates, but if there's severe cold, then I'll take meat any day. Vegan is an interesting idea to me, but not even cows are vegan. They eat lots of insects and probably even snails. So vegan is a nice experiment and it may work, but for that you may need a lot of insights about how to get what you need. So try it. I started to become sick of letting go everything all the time and so I wanted to give my self some room. I looked at nature and found that I feel more like a wolf and that I would much rather live like a wolf, than like a cow. I am a hunter. I hunt experiences like a tiger hunts deer.

So I look at vegans and I realise that vegans are often really docile. We need active and intimidating people. Why? We are being throttled by wave after wave of unconscious generations. We must stop this flood of nonesense and get back our strength. If I want to hold my ground against a system that is corrupt, then I need all the strength that I can muster. I need to be a fighter and how many fighters are vegans? That is my perspective. I saw my self being drowned my people that have no respect. I was lacking strength and so I decided to change. It was a conscious choice, because I found that there were things I was lacking while I was a vegan. It was dishonest. If times were different and things weren't as corrupt, I would have no problem with veganism, but things aren't going well at all. I see what is and what is is "The forests are being cut down everywhere" and that is the only place I really like. I wish cities to go down and they will in due time, but me laying down arms will not change my life. I have to fight for my freedom and the freedom of my people. Content creation only makes sense to me, because I can slip in comments in a highly censored world. The best place for me to openly talk is my books. Everything that you upload on the internet is in danger of being deleted and that makes my life a little bit tough. So I hide certain truths in a web of words. I cannot speak online about everything I would like to speak about openly. So I must be smart. A fox. If veganism talks to you then pursue it, like I have. Maybe your resolve will be stronger than mine (in terms of veganism), but I still got where I am today, because I made the choices that were hard.

Milk. Cream. Greek-Style Yoghurt. Protein. Cooling. Keeps you going. That's all I gotta say on this point.

Yeah. I eat cooked and I eat raw. Sometimes I eat raw onions. Sometimes I fry them. A mixture of both is best, I believe. I finely slice cabbage and then add cumin seeds, oil and vinegar and store it in a sealable container in the fridge for 4-5 days. Then I eat it bit by bit. I fermented lots of garlic in brine. I also like soups, with bay leaves, lentils or peas. I reduced fruits in favour of vegetables, nut butter, occasional meat and spices. I rarely eat lettuce, because it is not satisfying to me. I eat dandelion on my hikes, when I am clear of roads. I learn about herbs. I collect stinging nettle and make pesto with it. I like to introduce change. Soups are great for winter and autumn. Did I mention peanut mousse? Works for me...

Bay leaves. Pimento. Cumin. Coriander. Chili. Cinnamon. Nutmeg. Green Cardamom. Black Cardamom (one of my favourites). Make your own Garam Masala? Roast spices a little before cooking with them. Paprka. Mustard seeds. Black Pepper. White Pepper. Just Pepper? Eat spicy foods to clean out your system. See how your nose begins to run and how frying a Chili and accidentally inhaling the fumes can dis-spell someone's mojo that was working on you. Transform your self by knowing what to eat when. I need to be super-adaptive, because I broke through to another plain of consciousness. In my world there are no true friends, but only contestants in the battle called life. And so I need spice and as long as I can go to a shop and buy spices, I will probably do so, until my life has ended or I managed to get out of the city and learned enough about surviving i nature to do that instead. This world is emotionally cold and so you need a little heat.

Cheers to those who suffer. Sounds Cheesy? Sounds true. I stopped drinking coffee for round about 10 months, but 2 days ago I drank one. I have experimented with coffee and tea and water. I tried cold-brew coffee and coffee from a Bialetti and also cowboy-coffee and Moroccan coffee. I drank coffee with sugar and with spices and plain. I tried French press and I even roasted my own coffee. Coffee is good for temporarily pushing through a tight spot, but never for long.

So now I cook coffee with spices and add a pinch of Swertia powder and cream. I drink Oolong tea, when I have it. I also drink black tea. I usually make everything rather strong, so I can continue to push through.

I also drink water, when I feel like drinking water, but mostly I drink some kind of tea, or herbal liquid. I never measure how much I drink, as I practise Zen, which means that you got to feel what you need. For some time coffee worked quite well, but I got really toxic and acidic and so I needed to find new ways. I truly dislike how drinking one coffee once always leads to this feeling of wanting more coffee all the time. Coffee doesn't really satisfy AT ALL. I cannot say why. Coffee also connects you to strange and angry beings and I often welt how other entities were becoming more aware of me while I was drinking coffee. So coffee feels demonic to me. It is something that connects you to the shadow-realm, which is why the industry is so fond of it. The industry, if you haven't noticed, has very demonic tendencies, which is not polarisation, but simply the way it is.

Green tea is thus better for sitting and meditating, while black tea is better for being active, which is what I need to keep on running errands. To me it is part of My Yoga to face challenges. If I cannot get around drinking coffee to push my self out of some dark pit and into starting on a new project/venture, then I'll do it. Well, I just did. I drank coffee to start working o this website again and then I stopped and switched to tea. The interesting thing is, like I said, that once I drink a coffee I want more and start to detest the tea I was so fond of just last weak. Only why? It has to do with power. What Don Juan (Carlos Castaneda book) said about Jimson Weed (it being a path of domination) seems to be true for coffee as well. I have meditated (looked at the roots 'coffee' in my mind) on coffee a lot and what I see are tortured souls that are fragmented. THUS: Never make drinking coffee a habit, but something you may do occasionally, if you need to open your self to a vision. If drinking coffee is a habit already, then reduce it to never more than once a day. Add spices to your coffee and only drink it when you can truly let go into a creative process. Do not just drink a coffee for chit-chat, as this will only breed gossip, which do you is from this day onward a waste of time. You wish to be creative and learn how to stay connected. Coffee helped me a lot during some of my works. It helped me to draw the sketches for my artworks, but the rest I did with tea. Be conscious, that's all I can say.

You gotta have to want this, you know? You really have to want to figure out diet in relation to how you feel. You may have to continue eating sugar, or drinking coffee, until you worked your self out of your pit. A depression is not what you are, it is simply a low-point and to get out of it is hard work. You may eat sugar, until you have gathered enough momentum to drop it. Always work hard to be stable. You gotta focus on Your Tasks. What are Your tasks?

I did not say: I want to be an artist. I started to draw sketches, photographed them, put them onto my computer and traced the lines in GIMP, then added colour and posted them.

I said "I need to get shit done!!!", because I had to motivate my self. Accomplishments were the only thing that kept me happy. Sharing my self online was my way out of feeling unheard. I let it all go. I became like Achilles, only with a pen, a camera and a laptop. I attacked everything that stood in my way like an angry beast, until everyone became a little bit concerned about Christopher. Everyone who attacked me in their minds eventually stopped, because I had shown them that I was willing to fight and that my fight was "for" and not against. So I left them behind and came back from time to time. I needed to really push through and nobody understood it, until others around me also started to work harder. We no longer wanted to attack each other, but started to protect the little peace that we found.

I am, to this day, reluctant to let go, because it is the only things I ever did that felt meaningful. I can tell people to STOP and to reduce their consumption. So I am trying to understand how "local" could work. How we could see the forest as something other than 'just wood'. The forest can feed us, but the journey is hard and long. I read "Watership Down" and saw my self as Fiver, or Hazel. I aligned my actions to those of Moses - to keep walking into the light and to a new and peaceful way of living. So my mind is set on walking away from endless debates and into being active. You wanna talk? Then do a podcast and share what's on your mind. Dig for truth until you get the hang of it and then share your story.

Is it finally over? Thank god. Thank nature. Thank life. I worked hard and all I can tell you is to Figure It Out!!!!! You want balance, then go and slackline and then see how diet contributes to it. Balance is a feeling and for that you gotta work hard and experience. You gotta sort out your weak feet and work on your foundation. You gotta pin your self down and understand what your ancestors went through. This is the story of one individual that continued to fight for the survival of consciousness and that continues to do so until he has no more light to shine and can finally let go into the eternal hunting grounds of a warriors last dance with life!!!

May 26th, 2025